Lost in lust

How can I claim what I claim
When lust fills my life again
Filled to the top like a rancid bucket of death flesh
The lust eats my insides
And makes me a little man
Jesus understands
And covers my sin
Outward and inward
Outward and inward

Calling Holy Ghost

I am dead and walking
So jaded , to much seen
Cut off from feelings
Holy Ghost come and awaken me
From my bland slumper and let
Me breathe again your deep conviction
Break my heart and crush my pride
Smash my ego and tear my lungs
From my chest and shake the dust and vile webs out so I can call on The Lord Jesus Christ name louder
Let my screaming wake me up if it must
Dont let me die in pridefully silence

As long as

As long as I face the outside world
Not look to myself
It's easy to place blame on others when it's all our fault
As long as there are so many worse than me. Nights full sleep.
One by one
Sin is sin
As long as I can feel fine
My brothers die
As I lay silent letting. Letting. Letting
As long as I feel comfortable
I cannot.

Old ways

Reminded of the way I use to be
From friends not seen for a while
To once have acted like that
Brings back shamefully memories
Not to long ago
Sideways from self will
sideways from the reminder of what once was
Not to long ago but forgivien

Anger that keeps me Away

What a hypocrite I can be
Yelling in anger right after I say a prayer
Not a very good example of Christ
For they judge our religion through the followers
Lord I am weak and not strong
You are so strong ,strong enough to hold me up when I fail
The anger I feel
The Devil after my tail
Please help me from myself
Oh wonderful loving God

Getting better, After devastating times

Lord my accident hurt and maimed me
I was so devastated all I can do was Cling you with all my might
I suspect the devil had his hand on the steering wheel
For I know you love me so much you would not put me in that situation
It was part of your divine plan and your divine way I cannot understand
My eyes are open to how fleeting life can be And how we Think we have all the time in the world, Through your power and grace I feel that I'm getting better and walking ,walking stronger after your Shadow

Today I feel like I am getting better today I feel stronger but thank you Lord for when I lay here and felt like the whole world was crashing down and you comforted me
You kept your promise to never make the burden worse than I can handle and you comforted me along the way caring for me Like a father does

I Fall Down

Tears flood down from the eyes of my soul like leaves from the past trees of the vanished garden, My roots lie there tangled by self-will and a push from evil falling comes natural in my blood seeing my reflection in the water before I hit the bottom of the well, Jesus will lift me out of the dark lonely unknown ,faith and trust are easy when times are good , gold comforts the weak and faithless my heart lies to me ,I lie to God,God lays forgiveness down Bought with blood that I need when I fall